Date : October 28, 2007
Time : 2:09 PM
Title :

Im like so bored.. so this is a random post...

what I'm wearing,
head: nothing.. just my black hair droping dead on my forehead
top: black shirt, plain black no designs.. just a white words..
pants: navy blue jeans, kinda tight but not so..
shoes: dark brown sandals
wrists: a G-Shock wristwatch

what im thinking..
- why is my skin still peeling from the sun burn from camp?
- why am i still 5 ft. 4"?
- why have i only lost 3" of my waist?

what im viewing online...
- nat fern's blog
- YiZhi's blog
- Zonn's Blog
- Halloween parties
- Pete Wentz Online
- Hduffworld.com
- oh-hilary.com
- emo (Wikipedia)

what i've eaten since i woke up today....
- a packet of Kinder Bueno
- that's it

what i've drunken since i woke up.....
- a glass of water
- that's it

accomplishments today..
- i've lost 3 inches off my waist
- i don't feel like overeating anymore

secrets..
- im not emo per say.. but i tend to be emotional at times..
- movies i've cried in..
- Titantic
- A Walk to Remember
- loads.. but i forgot which ones.. okay.. i admit.. im like a water fountain when it comes to sad romance movies...

thats all for now. good by.. and good riddens..

Labels: intro, random, secrets

Date :
Time : 1:35 PM
Title :

I SO FORGOT TO STATE!!!

THE POST BELOW IS THE LYRICS FOR THE VIDEO IN THE POST BELOW THAT!!

IT IS NOT MY POST...

lol.. sry for going all caplocks..

didnt want you guys to get the wrong idea...

Date :
Time : 10:58 AM
Title :

Dear Diary, Mood-Apethetic

My life is spiraling deathward. I couldn't get enough money to go to the Blood Red Romance and Suffocate Me Dry concert. It sucks because they play some of my favorite songs like Stab My Heart Because I Love You and Rip Apart My Soul and of course Stab Me Rip Stab Stab and it doesn't help that I couldn't get my hair to do that flippy thing either like the guy from that band can do.

I'm an emo kid, nonconforming as can be
You'd be nonconforming too if you looked just like me
I got paint on my nails and makeup on my face
I'm almost emo enough to start shaving my legs

Cause I feel real deep when I'm dressing in drag
I call it freedom of expression girls just call me a fag
Cause the dudes look like chicks and chicks look like dykes
Cause emo is one step below transvestite

Stop my breathing and slit my throat
I must be emo
I don't jump around when I go to shows
I must be emo

I'm dark and sensitive with low self esteem
The way I dress makes everyday feel like Halloween
I have no real problems but I like to make believe
I stole my sisters mascara now I'm grounded for a week

Sulking and writing poetry are my hobbies
I can't get through a Hawthorne Heights album without sobbing
Girls keep breaking up with me its never any fun
They say they already have a pussy they don't need another one

Stop my breathing and slit my throat
I must be emo
I don't jump around when I go to shows
I must be emo
Dye in my hair and polish on my toes
I must be emo
I play guitar and write suicide notes
I must be emo

...My life is just a black abyss you know? Its so dark and its suffocating me, grabbing a hold of me and tightening its grip. Tighter than a pair of my little sisters jeans...Which look great on me by the way...

When I get depressed I cut my wrist in every direction
Hearing songs about getting dumped give me an erection
I write in a LiveJournal and wear thick rim glasses
I tell my friends I bleed black and cry during classes

I'm just a bad, cheap imitation of goth
You can read me 'Catcher in the Rye' and watch me jack off
I wear skin tight clothes while hating my life
If I said I like girls, I'd only be half right

I look like I'm dead and dress like a homo
I must be emo
Screw Xbox I play old school nintendo
I must be emo
I like to whine and hate my parentals
I must be emo
Me and my friends all look like clones
I must be eeeeeeemo

...My parents don't get me ya know? They think I'm gay just because they saw me kiss a guy...well a couple of guys but I mean its the 2000's can't 2 or 4 dudes makeout with eachother without being gay? I mean chicks dig that kinda thing anyways.

I don't know diary sometimes I think you're the only one who gets me. You're my best friend. I feel like tacos.

Labels: funny, hobby, lyrics, video

Date : October 26, 2007
Time : 1:52 PM
Title : Happy Birthday LeFa!

I Totally Forgot!!!

Happy Birthdya Alfa!!!

Wish you luck, your 14 now.. almost the age of a true teen.. thats.. me! 16.. lol..
i can go clubbing now!!! yay me!

sorry for rubbing it in your face.. couldn't help it... its a bad habit..

anyhoo.. gots to go.. byes...

Labels: friends

Date :
Time : 1:44 PM
Title : Emo Song

Okay.. i tried to cheer myself up by watching some funny vidoes, that always works for me.. i went to bored.com ... and i looked up at the video paradies... it was hilarious.. but you guys have to watch this. lol.. its so funny.. singing about emo kids...



i think i lost a little bit more pounds.. i hope i can keep this up... wish me luck! soon, i can as skinny as....



That's Hilary DUff By The Way... she's not really THAT skinny, but the lighting makes her look it..

Labels: funny, video

Date : October 23, 2007
Time : 2:34 PM
Title : Presents

I have never gotten any proper birthday present in 4 years!!! is that fair? No!!! Since when was anyone too old for birthday presents!!! i mean, i buy MY PARENTS birthday parents don't i?!!!!!aisfh; oighaw jgfi j i am pissed... nothing is going right!@!! im still 1.63m(5 ft.4), im still 70kgs(154 lb)... still a little overweigfht!!! i dont want my useless excess fat!!! i wanna be like skinny... no matter what i do... nth wotks.. so far i have only lost 7 kilograms(15 lb)... its not enough... what can i do... nothing seems to work!!! not growing any taller at all!!! in 3 months i only grew 2cm???? are you nuts!!! i might as well be a hobbit!!!
why does everything bad happend to me... why must the good dies young...well... no more mr. nice guy... im goinna put 120% into my weightloss regime... im going to be super skinny... whether you think i can or not... i can tell you now!!! by january... i'll be surprisingly thin!!!! compared to now atleast... lol... mark my words...!!!

Labels: health, hobby

Date :
Time : 1:21 PM
Title : what has gone wrong!

Oh My God! i can believe i FAILED my overall grades!!! i thought things would work out fine after i got my english and literature grades.. because i got 74 for english and 67 for lit... i would never get that high for those subjects... but thanks to french my overall %% is 49.71... i wonder what will happend to me? will i have to be retained? will i have to move to another school? there is no way i am staying back a year... but another school??? if i do have to go to another school.. where would i go? fairfield? gan eng seng? queenstown? henderson? bukit merah? omg.. i want to stay at st. joseph's but a little part of me wants to leave... its just not my type of school.. but you know i hate making friends.. so another school would be like torture for me.. even though i should be used to it since i've been to tons of schools due to travelling to other countries.. but they were international schools... there seems to be a more friendly vibe at international schools.. then public schools... a lot of awful things are happenning to me, why me? i may have to move to another school, my classmates definately will not be in my class, my grades are horrible, argsrajkgh;o ithb';12k1... (sorry, i just had to do that!) argh!... what's wrong with me....

\here are my grades this term...



such a long post... but i wanna right so much... sorry if this post is boring you...!

Labels: friends, school

Date : October 22, 2007
Time : 3:06 PM
Title : Camp

i was gone for soo long, im sorry for not saying.. it was a 4 day 3 night camp at Kluang, Malaysia!!! Anyhoo, there are just too many things on my mind right now... dont you just hate it when one of your best friends has got to leave to another school? i do! it has happened to me too many times... i was best friends with John for almost 6 years in thailand, till i had to move to Batam, where i was best friends with bethani and kyle, then i had to move to Korea, where i was like, well, i didn't make BEST friends but i was super close to maria... she left for georgia(the country)... i was lonely for 3 months... now in singapore... genevieve is my best friends... she's still my best friend not goin g anywhere... but my other best friend is going away... you see, i'm not really the social type, i mean it took me and gen 2 years to be friends, just normal friends... so just as i was getting along with my other best friend, he has to go to another school... its just not fair... i hate making frineds.. it just puts me off... argh!!!

Labels: friends, school

Date : October 3, 2007
Time : 5:05 PM
Title : Hilarious Indian Parady Video!!!

Labels: funny, video